oopsie daisy!

2003-09-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

You know, what you did was REALLY fucked up. I don't mean a little, I mean MAJORLY. Do you even comprehend what you did? Let me put this in blunt terms for you like I did Addie:

You fucked Addie's cousin Preston, who obviously probably sleeps with a number of girls and even gang banged one. You did it right beside of her, while she was fucking some guy she didn't even know. You had Austin, sitting there on the bed watching and getting off to it. You had Andrea in the other room trying to sleep, yet she had to hear it. Do you really think Andrea cared to hear you both fucking? That is RUDE. It's fucking SICKENING. Everytime I think about it I get PISSED OFF.

Ok, maybe you do feel bad about it, but you sure as hell have a hard time showing it. You act as though everyone is wrong for being pissed about it, and that you did nothing wrong. EVERYONE IS PISSED. Even Jake is pissed and he really has no reason to. I'm sorry if what I wrote hurts your feelings. I was really pissed when I did it and I'm really pissed now. As for everyone minding their own business and getting a job, etc. it's kinda hard to when someone you care about goes out and does STUPID SHIT. I realize I did stupid shit on Friday too, but I learned my fucking lesson from it. It seems as though you still haven't. Maybe something will give you a kick in the ass.

2003-09-27T21:58:00.000-07:00

COLD (I'm running out of ideas REMIX!)

Immense amusement and joy
Comes from this lyric poetry
That I implore
It makes me giggle
With excitement
Making fun of some people
Who get their kicks off of cement

Mmmm…cold
Hard
Dirty
fLoOr

Mmmm…fucking
In front
Of family
Is so FUN!

And all of the excuses in the world
Don’t excuse you
From what you did
You knew what you were doing
AND IT WAS FUCKING SICK
NEVER DO THAT SHIT AGAIN.

2003-09-27T21:54:00.000-07:00

Little girl (ON THE FLOOR REMIX!)

What the fuck are you thinking
What goes through that mind
That pretty little head
That is only one of a kind

Baby you’re so tainted
The flowers fainted
When you entered the room
Kinda like bombs dropping, boom!

An OH OH here
And an AH AH there
An OH
And an AH
EVERYWHERE!

OOoOO weeee OooOOo
I can see you
Peek A Boo!
I just stepped on your face with my shoe!

Why were you down there on the floor?
Who is that guy?
What is that thing?
Why are you crying?

What is wrong huh?
This is all new
The girl who never knew
That the ones closest to us cause the most pain.

And maybe I shouldn’t give a fuck
Maybe I should let it go
But it’s too hard
Too FUCKED UP
To just erase.

2003-09-27T21:49:00.000-07:00

In and Out (Sick and Dirty ReMiX!)

In

Out

In

Out

My mind in doubt

In

Out

In

Out

Because I just found out

In

Out

In

Out

You have no morals and no guilt

In

Out

In

Out

You don’t feel bad
You don’t care
You don’t see a problem
You don’t want a solution
To this fucked up situation
That has all of us aching
To forget
To move on
To leave it behind
And live our own lives
But it’s so sick
And you’re so dirty
And it kills us
To think of it
To imagine it
To hear it
Inside our heads
Inside our minds
Inside ourselves
Inside of you.

2003-09-27T00:39:00.000-07:00

ahaha. i never use this fucker. i'm using it now because a lot of shit has been happening and i really can't handle it. i just can't keep it all inside, you know? i have to vent.

so here we go:

friday i went and got high and got the shit scared out of me about 3 times, when i said i wasn't going to get high. so yes, i went back on what i said and i am a dirty little hypocrite. i'm not getting high again, or atleast for a long while. so i was feeling like shit because i ditched some of my friends and didn't make it back to their house. THANK FUCKING GOD I DIDN'T. ok here's where karma comes into play - so i was out doing what i shouldn't have been doing and all this bad stuff starting happening, right? exactly. good. well i got my ass kicked by karma and i decided to call it a night and not go to my friend's house because i felt that something else bad was going to happen. to my surprise i find out that something did happen, my friends are whores. it just fucking pisses me off to even think about it. ugh sick sick. but you know, something is looking out for me. if i would have went to that house while i was high then i would have BEEN RIGHT DOWN THERE ON THAT HARD DIRTY ASS FLOOR FUCKING TWO GUYS I BARELY KNOW WITH THEM. so karma is on my side baby, *smooch* i love you karma. i knew all that stuff happened to me for a reason, i just didn't know why.

i'm still pissed about what happened though. i really have no reason to because it's their lives, not mine. i guess it's different when you care about someone. when you think that they're something they're not, like oh lets say...smart? andrea, it's like my picture has been smashed babe, you know? lol. i'm sorry your weekend has been bad, i can only imagine. first your car, then your friends. what else is going to get tainted this weekend? we have one more day, i'm sure we can fit some more in, right?

so i am pissed right now. i've been having fits of anger and calm all night. i just keep thinking about it i keep thinking about the sounds, the sick ass boy WATCHING, the poor girl in the other room, the song A.D.I.D.A.S.

ALL DAY I DREAM ABOUT SEX
ALL DAY I DREAM ABOUT FUCKING

and lets not forget

I DON'T KNOW YOUR FUCKING NAME
SO WHAT, LETS FUCK.

so yeah, i'll probably feel bad about this post tomorrow, but for the moment, fuck it.

Reckless

It's midnight
There are no lights
That shine bright
On my pathetic plight

TO BE HELD
AND TO HOLD
TO BE FEEL WARM
WHEN I'M COLD

I don't even know you
And I don't even care
All I really want
Is to feel you pulling my hair

Oooh, make me SCREAM
And make me MOAN
Make me CRY
And make me GROAN

I don't even know you
And I don't even care
All I really want
Is to feel you pulling my hair

You're so reckless
(Reckless)
Careless
Desperate
And Apathetic

You think you're free
But it seems
You're chained down
To fake lust and love
But it doesn't matter
Because you probably like bondage too, bitch.

2003-07-25T14:19:00.000-07:00

ooo. a new blog. ooh how nice. nothing to write right now you just wait till tonight and maybe next week is over. yeah. a whole lot of blog comin' right at your FACE.